Overcome with emotion.
Taken over by a reaction.
Overwhelmed by the presence of chemicals in my brain.
It isn’t so farfetched.
Actually, it is a reality that I have grown rather accustomed to.
I am often lost in my own mind
Overthinking
Concentrating on the what ifs instead of the right now
I shy away from making plans for the future
But I fear that I won’t find one
It eats away at the very core of who I am
What will happen and what is happening seem so intrinsically linked.
Stuck together the way you can’t have day unless night follows
I yearn for the strength of night
To be the quiet sister to the brilliance of day
To be all right as the shadow
Instead of needing to be the spotlight, the center
Of course, the day is only the center of one small thing
The infinite possibilities of the billions upon billions of other centers is overwhelming.
I am like that inconsequential center
I don’t want to shine alone.
To face the notion that I may have to be strong enough to stand alone
Forever
The timeframe is just too long
Forever
To be expected to endure it by yourself…
Well that would just be cruel
I fear that I am destined to push everyone away
That in shining alone for so long
I have burned too bright
And have overshadowed my match.
My knight
When does a princess become the wicked queen?
Is it her time alone that makes her so embittered?
When will I find the home I have sought for so long?
When will I let the sun set on all of the dreams, so that I can embrace a reality?